Sunday, February 24, 2008
i was feeling unhappy
tt my parents were fighting once again
someone pls do tell me fairytale endings
do last
i was feelin emo
untill i tot abt the words that are mispronounced
by eng speaking singaporeans
1) facade ...they sae (fah-car-dey....or fur-charde)
2)cafe....they sae (cave ...haha ...or kk dunnoe alr)
3)salmon ...they sae (sell-mon)
4)milk ....they say (me-ilk)
actually ive been wrong before and
have been corrected tts why i can
look back and laugh...prolly at myself
actually haha
only the first 2 egs tikle me pink
tanchun and i talked abt being roomies in uni !
man i realli hope ill cross this
hurdle and make it to uni!
in my big man i trust
ahhhh the idea is just driving me nuts
haha
chun and me !
cihui and xian ling
whee !
hostel mates !
btw another thing driving me nuts
is ppl giving the A level students false hopes
tt the results are gonann be out
on fri for the last 4 fridays haha
thanks for the added excitment in our lives
thou sometimes i may not appreciate it as much
but still i see ur efforts to cheer us up =)
so ill just sae thankyou aniwaes
rainbow;
5:50 AM
Friday, February 22, 2008
reeeetarrrded!
haha yeah the world is retarded
beacuse i dun get to see crispy and the rest in a week =(
make tt two weeks !
because of lockins,ntu open hus ,airshow tml grrr
im just lazy to go plan class outings in the
aft for tml SRY!
but well hav wii,pizza and majong next week ! promise =)
but i saw althea ,merilyn ,buddy ,the girls
i reliefed the whole week
so hmmm i guess i shldnt complain
mebey i shld stop looking outside
and take care of the ppl 'inside
the house instead
haha hmm outing with my bro ?
seriously if it happens
it wld be our first
just tt i dun see the point of going out
for a meal
when my mum cooks such yummylicious food =)
miss tang(merilyn) girls are soooo cute
we were just parading arnd the sch to chill
our brains
plus pass msges (like hw) to our classes
misss tang girls wld stop her every 100 steps
to get her to try their spegetti (home econs girls)
complain to her
talk to her
haha
althou some are taller than her !
but nevertheless
i kinda like what i see
i like a loving environment
where ppl love each other
like how miss tang loves her students
and how her students love her
i love going back to sch
because the environment is so nurturing
anywae aft the horror live lesson i had with the
class i took the last time where everybody
fought to ans ,and they left me
haha nort being able to hear myself .
i learnt to use my bright beautiful goldfish big eyes
to draw their attention =)
i feel happy bacause i covered an
important live topic on respect
i just wanted to expose them to whats happening in the world
like what mrs lum did when we were in sec 4
i enjoyed listening to her i rem
i tried to show them
how ppl have nort learnt how to respect each other's religion race
sex,status in the pass and in a mordern soc such as ours
i had fun seacing out info abt the holocaust and the k.k.k
i was also learning in the process=)
im preety idealistic
i hope tt our generation of hate
can become a generation of love
i hope theese girls can make a diff in each others lifes
one aspect i feel extreamly accomplised was to talk
to them on the sub of bullying
its been a topic that realli
pulls at my heartstrings
mabey because im sadden to see it happening
amongst adults in the work place ?
ppl dun seem to grow out of it
its heartbreaking for me to watch
ppl lifes being ruined in the process
physical scars aint nothing compared
to emotional ones
i pray tt god will convict me quickly
shld i ever want to hurt anybody
set the ppl free
btw im amused by the ppl arnd me haha
-andy is suddenly so enthu abt class outing
-josh seems to be talking abt everybody older than him
haha quite jealous of him actually
so many god parents ! haha
-merilyn being miss sunshine to her students=)
-althea popping up in my life out of no where
-crispy finslly being a special education volunteer!so so proud of her
-tan chun talking to me over the phone for 3 hrs straight
...which was super cool
i havent done such stuff for soooo long !
man god ! i love theese ppl in my life
sometimes thinking abt them just makes me
feel so blessed!
rainbow;
6:56 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
we have just herald in a highly commerciallised dae/event
but nobody is complaining i guess
haha do u dare complain in front of
ur date ?
i love special occations
it helps to take the load of us
after going through weeks of
drudgery/routine work
something to look forward to
as it is usually a time for ppl to meet
experience and liberate
been thinking of AC and the things that we used to do
if we rewind the clock back by six mths...this
is prolly what we wld experience
-looking lost on our phones trying to find each other
in the void deck /canteen ,every girl seem to hav bangs /
skinny stick like legs
and every guy spiky hair /shaved heads
-buying every newly designed AC shirts ,even thou we alr have
enough Ac t-shirts to be worn for breakfast lunch and dinner
7 days a week
- class guys
1)ponning miss toos remedial for the soccer fields and
getting caught when she looks out of the STI
- making
retaded comments spontaneously at any one time
2) losing their pocket money on soccer like hha always ?
3)realli impressed by their determination to work hard for
NAPfa ...how did u think we gort the FITTEST CLASS award=)..free
bbq for our class as a reward
4) being clowns of the class ,class wld seriously be dead without them
(we have the cute :mike lai ,the queer inventor/destructor:yuxiang,
the uncle : clovis ,the love birds: mark and rich
,the too cool for sch :andy and weemeng
the aunti killers : paul and mike yue , the haphazard: naveen
the comm pro : chinhong ,the blind follower : chooqi ,im sry if i left out anibody
trackers kana knocked out by practicising soccer boys
while running ...worse still for the jumpers ..the soccer
post is situated in front of our territory.
the jumpers are constantly
on the lookout for weapons/flying balls
the soccer tchr(my pe tchr)
personally knocked me out a few times
no wonder he looks apologetic every pe lesson haha
still rem being realli amused by effiminate guys
sometimes ill just observe them and laugh
still rem some effiminate guy saw me laughing
at his actions and thought i was expressing interest
tt was realli cute,i nearly got
myself into trouble
going high at every celebration including cny/national dae
every celebration is truly festive because
everybody is retarded ...fun>image...
esp with the boistrous sb5 girls haha
observing all sorts of ppl ..bimbos..
lackadiacical..witty
ppl who smoke and glides thru the most
impossible situations with tchrs...cheena..
well off...well dressed...elegant..outspoken
...crazy...funloving ...trouble makersdramaqueens/kings
..nerds..schlors..all rounder sportsmen/women..musicians...effiminate...
basically everything and i cant condemn them
althou we have all sorts of taggs for them ..
they colour our school life ...
and change our perspective
and take our emotions on a
rollercoaster ride
i feel that life begins at ac
when our class went for cip in batam
,i still rem singning rudely waking us up
(by leaving us cold without a blanket) n
the whole near ghost encounter which left
chiam and i
screaming down the hallway haha
in the end chiam and i forced ourselves
into jo and singnings bed thou it was
a single bed n it was without
warning or permission haha
leaving them
squeezed
in the end we had picnic in their room =)
chiam and i had no regrets/qualms leaving our
hundred pluss per nite accomodation abandoned
still rem the guys buying the brightess biggest
shells for their crushes/gfs
thou some nv found the courage
to present their gifts
aniwaes i tot they were realli sweet
it was the girls who taught me how to love =)
had quite a bad experience with some
girls my batchmates @ pl prefectorial
board i was scarred ..nv felt so hurt
in my life aft tt i always felt
inferior,rejected,alone
i lost myself,i told myself i was a misfit
i condemned myself
if many ppl are agst me then something
must be wrong with me rites?...
i tot AC wld be worse but i find myself
being able to love more freely and
overcoming my fears i think comming
to AC was a release for me
i was even able to tell them how loser i was
but they still love me the same
i think tt was how i recovered im so happy =)
i bet u nv knew u were such great doctors
thks for helping me love again
love u girls
i saw how our class patched up
their r'ship with miss too
i was stunned
i was happy
i found hope in ur examples
(i wanna thank cuiwen,jojo,
sing,san,chiam,qz,clovis.
chinhong,mark,rich n shilin for tt =)
and i nv loved any other class like sb6
happi v dae !
rainbow;
6:31 AM
Friday, February 01, 2008
starting work on fri is weird
i keep thinking tml is mon or sumthing
haha
yay ! i relief teached @pl on fri
my cell girls are so cute larz
they were so confused
as to how they shld adress me
they were like fighting with each other
wheather i was miss tong or mingxiu
i kinda pefer mingxiu thou =)
wha kk i met my buddy and her friend
u noe the buddy we had when we were pri 5?
then our buddy was some inncocent lookin pri 1 kido ?
wha haha they are like so big alr
sec 3 alr ...
i mean in my mind they were nv so tall =(
haha
ahhhh my buddy is still so dark !
i think tts the onli trace tt is still the same
in lee hwang
its so beautiful ...a reunion i nv imagined
wld take plc
im some unsentimental fool
haha seriously
as in i do forget ppl easily
unless i was realli close to them
if not ill be realli guarded
agst them
some of the pri sch trackers .now in sec sch recognise me
and they came up to chat me up=)
i learnt soemthing frm them man
even thou u dun realli know somebody
u can always give a cheerful greeting
to brighten up the day of tt person
no need to feel weird
no fear of rejection
wha kk i feel like ive learn so much frm theese girls
in just one day
time for me to be more loving man
as we grow up ppl become more guarded
more cynical ,more judgemental ,more critical
less happy,less satisfied(like i see at my fathers work plc)
its time to hav more childlike faith ,childlike love
its time for me to return to the time
where loving was natural
and free
restart .
rainbow;
6:33 PM
